医人当关2018

    正常的人都是相似的，不正常的人则各有各的不正常，
    这是对GA起早贪黑跟了5季之后的心得……
　　　　
    强烈要求编剧多加入几个健康角色，类似bruke这种的，
    至少别那么拧巴，那么矫情，那么作，
    你爱我，我就不爱你，你不爱我，我就偏爱你，
    你给我的，我就不要，你不给我的，给不了我的，我就非要，
    我要的，我又不要了，我不要的，我又要了，
    你要分手，我就不分手，你不要分手，我就非分手，
    你进我退，你退我追，你驻我扰，你疲我打，
    关系不正常的时候，我小弟弟总是能随便举到处举，关系一旦稳固正常，我的小弟弟就怎么举都不举，
    你结婚我，我就非装着不乐意结婚你，就忸怩、就作态、我就临大典了，来宾都上齐了，还强烈要求上一次手术案子拿刀划拉一下病人的肉，否则我就好像不够坚守自我（真正自我够强大的人至于么？）
    等到你不结婚我，我就心碎就酸楚就黯然，就重新发现你多么值得珍惜，就领悟有了你的幸福和没了你的不幸福，就非愿意结婚你——早干嘛去了都？！
    就得要军医这样的，才治得了这种爱作的女人，快断气了么？圆珠笔往气管插上。皮开肉绽了么？订书机赶紧钉上。有手术的可能么？立马动上。喜欢了么？摁倒了亲上。
    祈祷编剧好好写啊，别给这个基础大好的角色整恶劣了，整纠结了。
    他需要像植物一样向阳、像狮子一样健壮、刚猛、果决、体内流动着纯酿威士忌一样的男性荷尔蒙。
　　　　
　　　　
    另，强烈要求编剧把Izzie这个人物/这个害虫好好修理修理～～～
    烦得俺不行鸟，
    刚出来时明明还是个善良、坚强的good girl，谁知越发展人格越扭曲、变形，
    总一副救世主或人生导师的姿态，插手和干涉别人感情，
    实际上自己的那破人生却料理得一塌糊涂、连夜漏雨、处处破洞，感情来得奇怪和草率，去得匆匆而莫明，
    刚还跟Alex那儿眉间心上、搞来搞去，转脸Denny来，马上便把Alex打进冷藏室，和Denny爱得惊天地、泣鬼神，眼神、微笑和泪水在整个病房里穿梭得、黏稠得水泄不通。
    接着Denny尸骨未寒便已人走茶凉，连忙饥不择食插足george和Callie的婚姻，希望从中找心理平衡。
    她对george和Callie婚姻进行的破坏，可能谈不上什么具体的邪恶动机，不过潜意识里绝对有一种类似寡母对儿子的独占心态，既然死了Denny爹，就赶紧要把她滔滔不绝、无处安放的爱找个儿子角色倾泄出来，对Callie的冷嘲热讽和恶意攻击，看起来完全是恶婆婆对儿媳鸡蛋里挑骨头的姿态。
    把george抢过来，玩了几天，发现情况完全脱离自己的预期，其实压根也没爱到当初自己认为的那份儿地老天荒、死去活来，或说这个玩意儿也没那么好玩，转而便开始死死盯上Alex和eva。
    看到她每天跟在Alex的屁股后唠逼叨唠逼叨唠逼叨，泪眼婆娑的排放出好像空谷回声一样延绵不绝的排比句：i care about you care about you care about you …………
    呕麦告～～，俺真想像Alex那样转回头去对她怒吼：shut up！stupid bitch！！
    这个女人对人家的幸福和不幸都要奋不顾身扑上去，嗡嗡萦绕上空，盘旋不去，完全只有苍蝇方能够做到，也完全只有苍蝇方能够形容～～

从一开始，我就认定Cristina和Meredith是一类人：同样的聪明，同样的优

秀，同样在受伤时拒绝抚慰，拒绝关怀，同样的孤独，同样的要求心灵和身体的

自由，同样的对真爱抱有希望。所以，她们成为了朋友，最要好的朋友，虽然

Mere和Izze、Geroge住在一起，但对Mere来说，他们只是室友，只有Cristina才

是与Mere心灵交通的人。
    曾经不理解，为何Cristina在Burk受伤，生命垂危时转身而去，终于在这里

找到了答案：由于9岁时目睹父亲因车祸流血致死，她害怕再次面对挚爱之人的

逝去，害怕自己在那一瞬间崩溃，害怕那种眼见着亲人在面前，生命一点一滴的

消失而无能为力的无助感。Mere何尝不是如此，眼看着被疾病慢慢夺走理智的母

亲，那种无助感也一直伴随着她，Cristina看到了，感觉到了，于

是，"Meredith Grey"成了“my person”.
   面对着威胁着Mere的死亡，她又一次选择了走开，买便宜货，在酒吧里拼命

灌酒，妄图这样打发时间，逃避心灵的伤痛。幸运的是，Cristina身边还有Burk

在,有了Burk的激励，她终于选择了面对这一切，而不放弃希望，当她满含热泪

，用坚定的声音说try again的时候，这已经不是原来那个Cristina了，而是一

个成长了的，可以用理智来面和意志对艰难困苦的Cristina。

      Denny出场时躺在病床上，眼睛始终跟随着Izzie，他脸上所展开的笑容一下子抓住了我：舒展，明亮，由衷，和他温柔的眼睛辉映着，很直接的传递着爱意，毫不掩饰。看着这样一张脸孔，我想任何女人的心都会荡漾着暖意的。
      一个受着病痛折磨的人，却一直保持着宽厚明朗的笑容，比任何健康强壮的人更豁达。看着Denny，我有一种很强烈的感觉：生活是如此的动人。我想不起Izzie是怎样爱上他的，可能就是这样一分分一寸寸的潜移默化了。
      记忆中很揪心的一幕，是Denny第二次入院，因为病情恶化需要在清醒状态中电击来帮助恢复心脏功能。他在电击时痛苦得大喊，然后对医生说：我讨厌你，你让我像孩子一样大声喊叫，还是在我想取悦的女孩面前。Izzie紧张担心的脸上一瞬间露出笑容——在自己遭受痛苦的时候还不忘发挥的可爱的幽默感，来安慰所爱的女人。这样一个男人，足够照亮一个女人的心。
      Izzie努力的劝说Denny接受安装心脏辅助装置的手术，来争取更多等待移植的时间--看到这一部分的时候，其实我心里十分矛盾纠结。我希望他们能最终成为彼此的补偿，哪怕是多一分钟也好，不要留下遗憾。可又知道这样的努力在给Denny的身体带来多一次的痛苦。虽然Denny的脸上也开始露出疲惫失望，但他还是对着Izzie笑着，在她的鼓励下再试一次，再试一次……哪怕明知这是渺茫的希望。有时候我在想，Izzie的爱是不是有些自私，可这又怎么来界定呢，百分之一的美好未来要用百分之九十九的痛苦来博取，是为了自己，也是为了对方，只有相爱的人才能这么去做吧。
      Denny终于从病床上站了起来，他们有了第一个拥抱。Izzie含泪微笑，说，你很高。
      为了争取到心脏移植的优先权，Izzie不惜触犯法规，切断Denny心脏装置的电源线来恶化他的病情。这情到深处的铤而走陷遭到Denny的反对，他温柔的注视着这个为爱疯狂的女孩，希望她能让他安静的离开。可这是一个不愿向命运服输的女孩，而Denny又是一个深情包容的男人。最终在她失控的喊着“求求你，求求你，就当是为了我”的眼泪中，他抱住她，说了“好”。
      术后醒来的Denny重复了进手术室前的求婚，在得到Izzie“Yes”的回答后，他对身旁的Bailey医生说：我哄她嫁给我了，我聪明吧。
      我们都以为新的生活就此展开了，可在Izzie挑选了三条礼服，终于穿着最漂亮的紫红色裙子来到Denny面前时，他的心跳却已经停止了。不久以前他刚让她感受过温热的手，他们刚刚不可思议的订下婚约……突然这一切都像从没发生过一样了。
      我有些不敢相信爱情故事就这样结束了。其实在这样一部美剧中，其他每个爱情都无外乎是相识，触电，默契，一点点情绪作用，然后是性……并不是说不真挚，只是很速成。而Denny和Izzie的情感在这样的环境中，就显得格外不同了：不同与常理，简直就像不是站在现实中的。所以才有了Izzie和同伴关于自己是否了解Denny的争论。她不清楚他的工作，他的家人，他的朋友，他生活得方式……她只看到他作为病人，住在医院的一面，从这些方面来说，她是不了解他。但了解并不会催生爱情，我很愿意相信这样无关于一切，只关乎两人之间单纯的感觉的爱情，这的确是很不实际，更可能是很戏剧的。但我相信，人的心底都是有抛开一切世俗去爱的能力的，只是有没有遇到那个能点燃你的人。
      Denny肯定是这样的人。
      在我的心里，他几乎等同于最明亮的笑容。

1

花了很長時間看Grey's Anatomy,之後又花了很長時間努力不去思考。醫療題材的片子很容易出彩，也很容易讓人覺得厭倦，《白色巨塔》走的是反面對比路綫，因果輪回報應不爽，配一首宗教歌曲就讓人落淚。相比之下，美國人喜歡沒事就說說人生，其實這樣挺好的，人生就需要一些淺薄又積極的探討。把人生歸結成一種美國式的黑色幽默之後又刻意壓低到扭曲零碎的生活瑣事中去，好像只有這樣，編造出來的理論才能夠得到圓滿。這一原則的另一個結局就是做出來的東西特別真實，有時候簡直是太他媽真實了。

大多數的矛盾只有三种原因，對於當下自我體認的不滿，對於當下他人對自我映射的不滿，然後導致了對過去未來的人生的焦慮。毉患關係的矛盾是人本身的矛盾，一方面對自己無法掌握自己生命的結局感到絕望，另一方面因爲了解前者的絕望，所以難以自我安慰。不知道自己要什麽；想知道自己要什麽；有時候以爲知道了自己要什麽；有時候只知道自己不要什麽。長得一臉韓國式plain的Christina是所有人的榜樣，在她一臉理所當然的道德感薄弱之下。最情比金堅是 Christina對Meredith：“緊急聯絡人我填了你的名字。”最無可奈何是Bruke對Christina：“我們算是一對了，這沒什麽大不了的。”最望塵莫及是Izzie對Christina：“我不是妒嫉她的選擇，我只是妒嫉她這麽堅定這麽純粹。”

如同我們所猜想的，醫生對於自己的人生，比常人有更多的不認同感。這就好像法官對於公平正義，老師對於教學相長，國家領導人對於國家本身的定義一樣。《無人生還》裏的法官，到最後都得意于自己病態的舉證方式：但是説到底，這是死循環。

2

很多人不能認同Meredith，有可能是對美劇中瓊瑤戯份的厭惡。要是都像越獄那樣，每集都刺激刺激刺激每秒鐘，就回到了好萊塢動作片的老路上。你還記得ABC是怎樣在好萊塢疲軟的時候殺進的麽？因爲人們關心的是内歷時的人物命運：Meredith在Seattle Grace的第一年，第二年……20個人中只有6個女人，而在這20個人之中，有5個將在壓力下崩潰，有2個會要求離開。George要重復實習，Alex留起了鬍子，Mark戯份加重，連男主角也對第三季的劇本表示了不滿，如果第四季還這麽混亂的話，他就要甩手不干了。接下來的事情你們都知道了：演O'mally的演員坦誠自己是同性戀，Addison功成名就spin off，Burke無法解決内部矛盾……然後，然後編劇罷工開始了。

回過頭來想一想，Meredith的塑造是成功的。她優秀得不露聲色，因此不同于典型亞裔美國人那種強迫式的自我要求，同時又有美國女人的優點：寬容和理解（至少看起來是這樣）。決絕?不，生活裏不流行決絕。關心？關心他人的生活，而不是内心。無論如何，劇本是用事件而不是獨白編織的，如果讓觀衆過多地看出編劇們表達的用心，毫無疑問是一種失敗——人物本身會有自己的發展，但是觀衆又非得要求緊張激烈的情節，稀奇古怪的病例，這確實是一種對於編劇能力的考驗。在Meredith瀕死的時候，各種綫索匯聚到一起，以四個人的方式把三季中重要事件和代表意義呈現出來，其中的一些綫索結束了，比如代表着 Meredith母親的護士隨著她母親的死去也消失了，但是另一些沒有，代表着主角感情選擇的Bonnie未來肯定還會出現。被炸成脆片的爆破組組長也許代表Meredith的勇氣，但是這種無所不能的勇氣，正如Meredith所說，會“fade away”，還有人氣最高的Denny和Izzie兩肩相觸的刹那，靈犀一點天人永隔：所有美好的東西最終都會消失，如果不能move on，你就只能困在原地。

是的，我們得承認人心脆弱。因爲害怕受傷害，太容易對珍惜的東西失去信心。像Christina那種受亞洲同胞們讚賞的堅強，其實是更深的自傷。如果真的完全不相信愛，怎樣完好地活在人間？

考文雕的時候滿腦子都是Meredith的金髮和抿成直綫的嘴。我一直覺得很層次的金髮很好看，但是一不小心，就會面如土色。我能理解美國精神是缺乏武俠小説熏陶的，她和他們都不知道什麽是“醉笑陪君叁萬場，不訴離傷。”

3

在列文的莊園，一男一女相遇了，兩個孤獨的，憂鬱的人。他們相互閒有好感，暗中希望能將兩人的生活結合到一起。他們只等着能單獨在一起的機會，以互相表白。有一天他們終于在沒有第三者的情況下同処一個小樹林。他們在那裏采蘑菇。兩人内心激動，一言不發，知道時機來了，不要讓它溜走。當時他們已經靜默了很久，女人突然開始說起蘑菇來了。這完全是“違背她意願的，意想不到的”。隨後，又是一陣靜默，男人掂量着字眼想表白，可是他沒有談愛情，“出於一種意想不到的衝動”，他也跟她談起蘑菇來。
在回家的路上，他們還在談着蘑菇，一點辦法也沒有，心中充滿了絕望，因爲他們知道，他們永遠都不會談到愛情了。

以上這個例子是昆德拉舉出來證明人類的行動怎樣超越出因果關係的可解釋範圍。事實上，這似乎是人類藝術的一個最大的突破口：科學證明那些可重復的事件，藝術則在不可重復的神秘性上佔有優勢。亞裏士多德認爲詩歌比歷史更真實，就是這個道理。從這個方面來説，編劇罷工最終會贏得勝利，因爲他們手中掌握着美國社會的“真實”，而這種真實性總是被需要的。

Meredith夢到自己拉開冰櫃，看到死掉的自己開口説話。死亡是涼爽的夜晚，自己的掙扎卻很徒勞。這是再真實不過的想法，誰也沒有立場說誰淺薄。對於那些認爲Grey's Anatomy刻意拉長劇情慘失人氣的，有些確實可觀，對於那些認爲主角形象塑造失敗的，則可能道德感過於強烈誘失中立了。有時候我們笑貧不笑娼。

SEASON ONE

Episode 1: “A Hard Day’s Night”
O.A.O.T.S., "Dance"
Thirteen Senses, "Into the Fire"
Butterfly Boucher, "Life Is Short"
Rilo Kiley, "Portions for Foxes"
Vaughan Penn, "Ready to Rise"
BANG sugar BANG, "Super Cool?
Jem, "They"

Episode 2: “The First Cut is the Deepest”
The Cardigans, "Live and Learn"
The Ditty Bops, "Sister Kate"
Keane, "Somewhere Only We Know"
Get Set Go, "Wait"
Tegan and Sara, "You Wouldn't Like Me"

Episode 3: “Winning a Battle, Losing the War”
Lisa Loeb, "Fools Like Me"
Tegan and Sara, "I Won't Be Left"
The Ditty Bops, "There's a Girl"
The Ditty Bops, "Wishful Thinking"
Reindeer Section, "You Are My Joy"

Episode 4: “No Man’s Land”
Get Set Go, "Break Your Heart"
The Eames Era, "Could Be Anything"
Rosie Thomas, "Let Myself Fall"
Sia, "Sunday"
Vaughan Penn, "Truth"
Tegan and Sara, "Where Does the Good Go?"

Episode 5: “Shake Your Groove Thing”
Ivy, "Edge of the Ocean"
Interpol, "Evil"
Dee, "Money Girl"
Buffseeds, "Sparkle Me"
Psapp, "Tiger, My Friend"
The Ditty Bops, "Wake Up"

Episode 6: “If Tomorrow Never Comes”
Psapp, "Chapter"
Butterfly Boucher, "Never Leave Your Heart Alone"
Jem, "Save Me"
The Ditty Bops, "Walk or Ride"

Episode 7: “The Self-Destruct Button”
Tegan and Sara, "Downtown"
Wilco, "Hummingbird"
Joe Purdy, "Suitcase"
ACDC, "The Self-Destruct Button"
Jem, "Wish I"

Episode 8: “Save Me”
Nellie McKay, "David"
Masha Qrella, "Feels Like"
Tegan and Sara, "Fix You Up"
Joe Purdy, "I Love the Rain the Most"
78 Saab, "No Illusions"
Laura Veirs, "Rapture"

Episode 9: “Who’s Zoomin’ Who?”
A.M. Sixty, "Big As the Sky"
Psapp, "Cosy In the Rocket"
Medeski, Martin & Wood, "End of the World Party"
Iron & Wine, "Naked As We Came"
Maria Taylor, "Song Beneath the Song"
Nellie McKay, "The Dog Song"
The Radio, "Whatever Gets You Through Today"


SEASON TWO

Episode 1: “Raindrops Keep Fallin’ On My Head”
Firstcom, "All I Need"
Michelle Branch, "Breathe"
Esthero & Sean Lennon, "Everyday Is a Holiday (With You)"
Ivy, "Feel So Free"
Bow Wow Wow, "I Want Candy"
Mike Doughty, "Looking At the World from the Bottom of a Well"
Kate Earl, "Some one to Love"
Blue-Eyed Son, "Step Away From the Cliff"
Joe Purdy, "The City"

Episode 2: “Enough is Enough (No More Tears)”
Goldfrapp, "Beautiful"
Joy Zipper, "Go Tell The World"
Jem, "Just a Ride"
kt tunstall, "Suddenly I See"
Brandi Carlile, "What Can I Say"

Episode 3: “Make Me Lose Control”
Sylvie Lewis, "By Heart"
Inara George, "Fools In Love"
Elevator Action, "I'm a Bitch"
Roisin Murphy, "Ruby Blue"
Get Set Go, "Sleep"
Maria Taylor, "Song Beneath the Song"

Episode 4: “Deny, Deny, Deny”
Ben Lee, "Catch My Disease"
The Delgados, "I Fought the Angels"
Merrick, "Infinity"
Rolsin Murphy, "Ramalama"

Episode 5: “Bring the Pain”
Way Out West, "Don't Forget Me"
Mike Doughty, "I Hear the Bells"
Tegan and Sara, "Not Tonight"
Roisin Murphy, "Prelude to Love In the Making"
Blue-Eyed Son, "Step Away from the Cliff"
Blue-Eyed Son, "When I Come Home"
Cowboy Racer, "Yellow Horse"

Episode 6: “Into You Like a Train”
The Hereafter, "Back Where I Was"
B.C. Camplight, "Blood and Peanut Butter"
Umbrellas, "The City Lights"
Emiliana Torrini, "Today Has Been Okay"

Episode 7: “Something to Talk About”
The Faders, "Better Off Dead"
Annie, "Chewing Gum"
Mark Joseph, "Get Through"
kt tunstall, "other side of the world"
Rosie Thomas, "Since You've Been Around"

Episode 8: “Let it Be”
Gabin, "Bang Bang to the Rock n' Roll"
Joe Purdy, "Far Away Blues"
Nouvelle Vague, "I Melt With You"
Anya Marina, "Miss Halfway"
The Faders, "No Sleep Tonight"
The Chalets, "Sexy Mistake"

Episode 9: “Thanks for the Memories”
The O.A.O.T.'s, "Dance"
Dressy Bessy, "New Song (From Me to You)"
Keren Ann, "Not Going Anywhere"
Fannypack, "Nu Nu (Yeah Yeah)"
Josh Rouse, "Sad Eyes"
Emiliana Torrini, "Serenade"
Nellie McKay, "The Dog Song"
Mark McAdam, "Too Hard"

Episode 10: “Much Too Much”
Get Set Go, "Crying Shame"
James Blunt, "High"
Greenskeepers, "Lotion"
Roisin Murphy, "Night of the Dancing Flame"
Lifehouse, "You and Me"

Episode 11: “Owner of a Lonely Heart”
Jim Noir, "I Me You"
Emiliana Torrini, "Sunny Road"
James Blunt, "Tears and Rain"
Gemma Hayes, "Two Step"
Moonbabies, "War On Sound"

Episode 12: “Grandma Got Run Over By a Reindeer”
Jet, "Back Door Santa"
Maria Taylor, "Christmas After All"
Holidays on Ice, "Here Comes Your Ride"
Sixpence None The Richer, "It Came Upon a Midnight Clear"
The LeeVees, "Latke Clan"
Catie Curtis, "Lo, How A Rose E'er Blooming"
Lou Rawls, "Santa Claus Is Comin' to Town"
Nat King Cole, "The Christmas Song (Merry Christmas to You)"
Mascott & Dave Derby, "This Christmastime"

Episode 13: “Begin the Begin”
Slow Runner, "Break Your Momma's Back"
The 88, "Hide Another Mistake"
Kraak & Smaak, "One of These Days"
Cary Brothers, "Ride"

Episode 14: “Tell Me Sweet Little Lies”
Saint Etienne, "A Good Thing"
Carey Ott, "Am I Just One"
Adrienne Pierce, "Fool's Gold"
Sam Winch, "I Got Some Moves"
Metric, "Monster Hospital"
Mike Tarantino, "Wienermobile Girl"

Episode 15: “Break On Through”
Emilia, "Big Big World"
Leeroy Stagger, "Just In Case"
Landon Pigg, "Sailed On"
Kendall Payne, "Scratch"
Rebecca Lynn, "Small World, Big Girl"
Kate Earl, "Someone to Love"
Aqueduct, "The Suggestion Box"
Vassy, "Wanna Fly"

Episode 16: “It’s the End of the World…”
Big Big World (TNT Big Phat Mix): Emilia
Monotypes, "Dead Streets"
Michael Stipe & Chris Martin, "In The Sun"
Joseph Arthur, "In the Sun"
Ursula 1000, "Kaboom"
kt tunstall, "Miniature Disasters"
Kate Havnevik, "Unlike Me"

Episode 17: “... As We Know It”
Greenskeepers, "Back In The Wild"
Anna Nalick, "Breathe (2 a.m.)"
Foy Vance, "Homebird"
Correatown, "I Tell Myself"
Ambulance LTD, "Stay Where You Are"
Kate Havnevik, "Unlike Me"
The Weepies, "World Spins Madly On"

Episode 18: “Yesterday”
All Sad Girls Are Beautiful, "Baby Blue"
Joshua Radin, "Closer"
Psapp, "Cosy In the Rocket"
Diplo, Pantera Os Danadinhos, Sandra Melody & Vybz Cartel, "Diplo Rhythm"
Headlights Headlights, "Everybody Needs a Fence to Lean On"
Rosie Thomas, "It Don't Matter to the Sun"
Devics, "Just One Breath"
Corinne Bailey-Rae, "Like a Star"
Shout Out Louds, "Wish I Was Dead Pt. 2"

Episode 19: “What Have I Done to Deserve This?”
Boy Least Likely To, "Be Gentle With Me"
Madeline Peyroux, "Careless Love"
Get Set Go, "I Hate Everyone"
Devics, "Just One Breath"
Corinne Bailey Rae, "Like A Star"
Sandra Melody, "Newsflash"
New Moscow, "Slow Down"
Brandi Carlile, "Throw It All Away"
Emiliana Torrini, "Today Has Been Okay"

Episode 20: “Band Aid Covers the Bullet Hole”
Ning Baizura, "Breathe Again"
Sing-Sing, "Come, Sing Me a Song"
Jem, "Flying High"
The Last Town Chorus, "Modern Love"
Tina Dico, "One"
Urbs, "So Weit"

Episode 21: “Superstition”
Anna Nalick, "Catalyst"
Luke Doucet, "Free"
Foy Vance, "Gabriel and the Vagabond"
Dr, Moses McNeil and Company, "Halleluah"
Rufus Wainwright, "Hallelujah"
Jeff Buckley, "Hallelujah"
The Fray, "How to Save a Life"
Devics, "Just One Breath"
Jamie Lidell, "Multiply"
Postal Service, "Such Great Heights"
Greenskeepers, "You Don't Know Me"

Episode 22: “Name of the Game”
Sunshine, "C'Mon Yeah"
Gnarls Barkley, "Crazy"
Dressy Bessy, "Girl, You Shout!"
Butterfly Boucher, "Life Is Short"
Joshua Radin, "The Fear You Won't Fall"
Anna Nalick, "Wreck of the Day"
Phil War, "You Think I'm Crazy"

Special: “Under Pressure”
Breath, "Breaking Down"
Mark Joseph, "Fly"
Adrienne Pierce, "Fool's Gold"
Merrick, "Infinity"
Bright Eyes, "I Woke Up With This Song In My Head This Morning"
The Weepies, "World Spins Madly On"
Kendall Payne, "Scratch"

Episode 23: "Blues For Sister Someone"
Metric, "Police and the Private"
Hotel Lights, "Follow Through"
Sunshine, "Love"
James Morrison, "Better Man"
Caleb Kane, "Go Mad"
The Chalets, "Gogo Don't Go"
The Chalets, "Red High Heels"
The Chalets, "Fight Your Kids"

Episode 24: "Damage Case"
Foy Vance, "Homebird"
Kate Havnevik, "Nowhere Warm"
Regina Spektor, "On The Radio"
Brandi Carlile, "Tragedy"
The Legends, "Something Good"
Inara George, "Oh My Love"
Kate Havnevik, "Unlike Me"
Anna Nalick, "Breathe (2 a.m.)"
Natalie Wilson, "When You Need a Friend"
The HorrorPops, "Where They Wander"

Episode 25: "17 Seconds"

Yeah Yeah Yeahs, "Gold Lion"
Snow Patrol, "Somewhere A Clock Is Ticking"

Episode 26: "Deterioration of the Fight or Flight Response"
KT Tunstall, "Universe And U"
The Coral Sea, "Look At Her Face"
Au Revoir Simone, "Through The Backyards"
Gomez, "How We Operate"

Episode 27: "Losing My Religion"
Peter Droge, "Under The Waves"
Dressy Bessy, "Side 2"
Amos Lee, "Colors"
Masha Qrella, "Destination Vertical"
Kate Havnevik, "Grace"
Snow Patrol, "Chasing Cars"


SEASON THREE

Episode 1: "Time Has Come Today"
The Dixie Chicks, "Lullaby"
Tegan & Sara, "Take Me Anywhere"
Sleeping At Last, "Quicksand"
Emiliana Torrini, "Nothing Brings Me Down"
Gnarls Barkley, "Gone Daddy Done"
Grant Lee Phillips, "Under The Milky Way"

Episode 2: "I Am a Tree"
Moloko, "The Time Is Now"
Mat Kearney, "Crashing Down"
The Chalets, "Theme From Chalets"
Bittersweet, "The Mating Game"
Jesus Jackson, "Running On Sunshine"
Snow Patrol, "Open Your Eyes"
Mat Kearney, "All I Need"

Episode 3: "Sometimes a Fantasy"
Outkast, "Idlewild Blues"
Lilly Allen, "Take What You Take"
The Pipettes, "Dirty Mind"
The Bamboos, "Step It Up"
The Poems, "Ballad of a Bitter End"
Joe Purdy, "Can't Get It Right Today"

Episode 4: "What I Am"
Camera Obscura, "If Looks Could Kill"
The Gossip, "Standing In The Way Of Control"
Au Revoire Simone, "Back In Time"
Kate Havnevik, "So - Lo"
TV On The Radi, "Province"
Mindy Smith, "Fall For Nothing"

Episode 5: "Oh, The Guilt"
Nellie McKay, "Clonie"
Kate Havnevik, "Kaleidoscope"
The Second Band, "Wild Is The Wind"
Fionn Regan, "Be Good Or Be Gone"
Keisha White, "Don't Mistake Me"

Episode 6, "Let The Angels Commit"
Teddy Bears, "Cobrastyle"
Jim Noir, "My Patch"
Peter Bjorn & John, "Young Folks"
Gomez, "Notice"
Vega 4, "Life is Beautiful"

Episode 7: "Where The Boys Are"
Beck, "Think I'm In Love"
Jim Noir, "Tell Me What To Do"
Luke Temple, "Make Right With You"
Inara George, "Greedy"
The Jealous Girlfriends, "Something In The Water"
Big Sandy & His Fly Rite Boys, "It's Time"
Brett Dennen, "There Is So Much More"
Bedouin Soundclash, "12:59 Lullaby"
Bill Ricchini, "A Cold Wind Will Blow Through Your Door"

Episode 8: "Staring at the Sun"
Lily Allen, "Not Big"
Get Set Go, "Everybody Get Movin'"
The Watson Twins, "Time of My Life"
Mat Kearney, "Where We Gonna Go From Here"
Ingrid Michaelson, "Breakable"
Chandra Wilson (Miranda Bailey), "God Bless the Child"

Episode 9: "From a Whisper to a Scream"
The Dears, "You And I Are A Gang of Losers"
Damien Rice, "9 Crimes"
Kate Havnevik, "New Day"

Episode 10: "Don't Stand So Close to Me"
Anya Marina, "Sociopath"
John Legend, "Show Me"
Son Volt, "World Waits For You"

Episode 11: "Six Days (Part I)"
The Research, "Lonely Hearts Still Beat The Same"
William Fitzsimmons, "Passion Play"
Emiliana Torrini, "Beggars Prayer (demo)"
Michelle Featherstone, "Rest Of My Life"
Travis, "Love Will Come Through"

Episode 12: "Six Days (Part II)"

1. OK Go, "Here It Goes Again"
The song plays as Meredith and Derek bicker in bed after not getting much sleep. Izzie and George discuss Izzie's check.

2. Regina Spektor, "Fidelity"
The song plays as Addison and Callie talk about Addison's choice to not have Mark's baby.

3. Ingrid Michaelson, "The Way That I Am"
The song plays as Cristina complains about sleeping alone, and Meredith confesses she feels jealous of George's relationship with his dad. Cristina brings Burke his dinner.

4. Susanna & The Magical Orchestra, "Love Will Tear Us Apart"
The song plays as the O'Malley family makes a decision about George's dad.

5. Gary Jules, "Falling Awake"
The song plays as Burke, Cristina and Derek talk about Mr. o'Malley. His family is gathered around him in the hospital. George's friends wait in support of him.

6. The Slip, "Life in Disguise"
The song plays as Cristina consoles George, Alex and Addison spend time together, and Derek goes to sleep beside Meredith.

Episode 13: “Great Expectations”

1. Lily Frost, “Enchantment”
Burke has Derek and Meredith over for a dinner party at his house, and Cristina sits in the kitchen counter tossing cereal into her mouth and drinking wine straight from the bottle.

2. Umbrellas, “Ships”
Callie, Cristina and Richard operate on a patient. Derek yells at Meredith about telling Sloan about the chief. Dr. Bailey asks Dr. Burke for help. Izzie talks to Rachel about letting go of Jilly who is going to die of a disease.

3. Skye, “Love Show”
Addison invites Alex to a surgery. Meredith and Derek fight, but make up. Cristina and Burke make up. George and Callie make up.

Episode 14: "Wishin' and Hopin'"

1. Sybarite, "Runaway" feat. Psapp
The song plays as Izzie and Bailey look onto their new "Denny Duquette Memorial" clinic. Cristina considers her ring. Meredith prepares to speak with her mother.

2. Beck, "Elevator Music"
The song plays as Izzie and Alex offer a patient a free consultation. Ellis and Cristina talk about Meredith.

3. Miho Hatori, "Barracuda"
The song plays as Vincent learns about his girlfriend. Cristina begs to be included in a surgery. Meredith warns Derek about her mother but Derek talks to Ellis anyway.

4. Iain Archer, "Canal Song"
The song plays as Meredith talks with Richard.

5. Susanna & The Magical Orchestra, "Believer"
The song plays as Richard and Ellis talk about Meredith and their past relationship.

6. The Whitest Boy Alive, "Fireworks"
The song plays as Cristina and Burke share their moment.

Episode 15: "Walk On Water"

1. Radio Citizen, "The Hop"
Meredith sits in the bathtub alone, Derek tells Meredith he is concerned about her, Izzie misses George, Cristina tells Burke not to tell anyone they are engaged.

2. Union of Knives, "Opposite Direction"
Bailey tells interns to get out there and help people, Meredith tends to the wounded.

3. 8MM, "Liar"
Izzie tells Vince to find search and rescue, Derek asks Meredith if she is upset, Addison and Richard talk, Cristina confronts Burke.

4. Snow Patrol, "Make This Go On Forever"
Alex checks on Jane Doe, Mrs. Heit waits for word on her son, Rick starts to have a seizure, A crowd of distraught family members yells at Alex, and Meredith is accidentally knocked off the pier into the water.

Episode 16: "Drowning On Dry Land"

1. Butterfly Boucher, "A Bitter Song"
The song plays as the episode opens and Meredith struggles in the water. Later, the track plays at the end of the episode as the doctors furiously work on Meredith.

2. Kate Havnevik, "Timeless"
Song plays as Izzie drills into the patient's head. The little girl stares at the water as Derek finally emerges with Meredith.

3. Patrick Watson, "The Great Escape"
The song plays as Izzie is in surgery with her patient. Alex posts pictures from the morgue.

Episode 17: "Some Kind of Miracle"

1. Aqualung, "The Lake"
The song plays early in the episode as the Chief works on Meredith.

2. Damien Rice, "Sleep Don't Weep"
This track is showcased when Meredith's heart flatlines, and the doctors look on, perplexed - and unsure if they should continue.

3. Unkle Bob, "Swans"
Song plays as Chief says goodbye to Ellis, Derek sleeps by Meredith, and Izzie & Denny sense each other in the hallway.

Episode 18: "Scars and Souvenirs"

1. Koop, "Come To Me"
Plays as Izzie gets surprised by Alex in the morning, and she complains to Meredith about it. At the same time, George complains to his wife, Callie, about Izzie.

2. Gomez, "Girlshapedlovedrug"
Cristina catches up with Colin, who shows up out of the blue. Derek and George prep for her operation. Callie tells George about her family.

3. Psapp, "Hi"
This one plays while Meredith tells Derek she is having dinner with her father, Thatcher, and the interns talk in the cafeteria.

4. Wild Sweet Orange, "Land Of No Return"
Meredith and her father and stepmother have dinner. Meanwhile, Dr. Burke questions Cristina about her past relationships.

5. Anya Marina, "Move You"
George and Izzie get drunk and have a blast together. Alex checks on Jane Doe, again. Cristina and Meredith have a heart to heart.

Episode 19: "My Favorite Mistake"

1. Mirah, "La Familia"
This song plays at the beginning of the episode as Izzie wakes up and Meredith and Cristina ask her questions about her night.

2. Alamo Race Track, "Black Cat John Brown"
At lunch, Izzie asks Meredith about blacking out after drinking. Cristina talks about Burke. Izzie asks about Jane Doe's face selection.

3. Adam Merrin, "Still Alright"
You hear this song as George has a flashback to the night before... and he goes to confront Izzie about it.

4. Let's Go Sailing, "All I Want From You Is Love"
This song plays as Meredith harvests bone during her much-anticipated operation, and Cristina amputates her patient's foot.

5. Let's Go Sailing, "Sideways"
Alex talks to Jane Doe about her new face. Cristina talks to Burke about their wedding. Meredith talks to Derek about her dad.

Episode 20: "Time After Time"

1. Amy Winehouse, "You Know I'm No Good"
The song plays as Burke and Cristina operate on a patient.

2. The Whitest Boy Alive, "Burning"
Plays as Cristina and Meredith discuss their issues with Colin and Susan, and Alex asks for Cristina's help.

3. Nouvelle Vague, "Dancing With Myself"
Playing in the background as the interns hang out at the clinic and talk about their patients.

4. Maria Taylor, "Clean Getaway"
George helps Izzie get dressed and she tells him about her family.

5. Lullaby Baxter, "Fontana Fontaine"
This track plays when Derek asks Bailey for advice about Meredith, and as George takes a recovering Izzie down to pediatrics.

6. Maria Taylor, "A Good Start"
Jane Doe argues with Alex. Burke and Cristina talk about Colin at home. Susan confronts Meredith and they have a heart to heart. Addison finds Richard hitting on a woman... and decides to intervene.

Episode 21: "Desire"

1. The Reddmen, "The Secrets of Amanda Prine"
We hear this song as the interns study for a big exam.

2. Let's Go Sailing, "Better Off"
Callie and Addison talk about their various relationships and feelings while this song plays (and Ava listens) in the background.

3. The Bird & The Bee, "Again & Again"
The interns continue studying, while testing out wedding cakes.

4. Beck, "Nausea"
The surgeons and interns participate in various operations.

5. Anna Waronker, "How Am I Doing"
This song plays at the end of the episode, as Cristina is studying and picks a cake, while George and Izzie talk about the future, and Addison unsuccessfully tries to get Alex to hang out with her.

Episodes 22 & 23: "The Other Side of This Life (Parts I & II)"

1. Feist, "Sealion"
The song plays as the interns are wakeful at night, and Cristina awakes to find Burke's mother is there.

2. The Mary Onettes, "Lost"
The song plays as Addison Montgomery drives along the Pacific coast and enters the Oceanside Wellness Clinic.

3. The Broken West, "Down In The Valley"
Addison enters the Wellness Clinic and finds Naomi.

4. The Switches, "Message From Yuz"
Naomi tells Addison they have an opening.

5. The Rosewood Thieves, "Los Angeles"
Couples therapy at the Wellness Center.

6. Jem, "California Sun"
Naomi and Addison talk, Violet runs into her ex.

7. The Adored, "Not Having It"
Cooper cries over his stripped vehicle.

8. Brandi Carlile, "Turpentine"
Addison yells at the elevator to stop talking!

Episode 24: "Testing 1-2-3"

1. Let's Go Sailing, "This Rope Is Long"
This song plays as Meredith gets dressed in a black dress as the interns study. Callie and George study. Meredith talks with Derek at the hospital and Cristina and Burke talk about the wedding.

2. Amy Winehouse, "Wake Up Alone"
The song plays as George tries to talk to the Chief, and the doctors operate on the three hypothermic mountain climbers.

3. Ingrid Michaelson, "Corner Of Your Heart"
Alex and Ava argue about her memory and what she really knows. Izzie tries to talk with George about Mercy West but becomes upset.

4. The Weather Machines, "Stains Of Saints"
This song plays as Addison joins Derek, Mark and Preston at Burke's bachelor party at Joe's bar.

5. Paolo Nutini, "Million Faces"
A mysterious woman offers to buy Derek a drink in the bar, while Ava (or Rebecca Pope) and Alex reconcile, and Richard finds Adele.

Episode 25: "Didn't We Almost Have It All"

1. The Jealous Girlfriends, "Roboxula"
Callie copies Cristina's vows onto her hand, Izzie and Meredith play toilet paper bride, Richard tells Mark he won't be Chief, and Bailey tells Derek that they found the fourth mountain climber.

2. Grace Potter, "Falling Or Flying"
Cristina is unable to sleep on the eve of her wedding day, Alex watches Rebecca and her husband talk, Derek talks to Meredith about his night.

3. Ray Lamontagne, "Hold You In My Arms"
Burke practices his vows in the O.R., Callie says she wants a baby, Alex talks with Rebecca's husband, Jeff, while he holds her baby.

4. Coburn, "Closer"
Cristina operates in order to clear her head before the ceremony. Izzie helps George tie his tie and declares her feelings for him.

5. Ray Lamontagne, "Within You"
The interns get their test results. Ava begs Alex to give her a reason to stay, and Meredith and Derek have a disappointing heart to heart.

6. The Hereafter, "Eulogy"
The song plays as Alex talks to Addison about Ava. George and Bailey talk about his results, and whether they failed one another. Meanwhile, the ladies get ready for the wedding.

7. The Mary Onettes, "Explosions"
Cristina readies herself and Preston goes to check on her.

8. Ingrid Michaelson, "Keep Breathing"
The song plays in the final few minutes of the episode as Alex looks for Rebecca, Meredith helps Cristina out of her dress, Callie watches Izzie sitting in the chapel, George meets Lexie Grey, and Richard talks with Derek about the Chief position.

P.S.
在雨天，在晚上，反反复复听着曾经在剧集里出现的那些歌。随着歌的旋律模模糊糊记得起那些情节，那些漂浮不定的情绪。

因为这部剧，记得Jem，记得Thirteen Senses，记得Snow Patrol，记得Keane，当然也会记得Meredith、Dereck、Cristina、Izzie这些人物。他们的哭与笑，快乐与悲伤，都在这些那些歌中。

好的爱情不是让你愿意放弃整个世界，而是让你看到整个世界。
两个破碎的人相遇，从对方身上汲取力量疗愈自己的伤口，互相让对方变得更好所以才走的这么远。
Meredith和Derek注定在一起，从第一幕开始便一直如此。无论中间有多少的坎坷我从来不曾怀疑过，他们就应该白头到老相守一生。
我希望meredith幸福就像是她希望cristina走过礼堂那样急切，所以当derek呼出最后一口气时，我觉得异常胸闷好像无法呼吸。
大妈破了我的梦，一连着几天我都觉得被背叛，心痛不行。derek走的那一刻让我开始怀疑我从GA中的所感所悟是不是其实是荒唐的。我是坚信有soul mate的，但那一刻我觉得即使我找到了另一半那又如何，期望的天长地久也可以戛然而止。
悲观厌世中我看见meredith坚定的脸，她推开一切人自己走了，一年后戴上渡船的帽子又拿起了手术刀。再多安慰的话都是空虚的，唯有自己品尝痛苦，将痛苦消化成力量才可以走出黑暗。
我忽然就觉得释然了，过去时光中的浪漫并不因为死就会变得不真实，爱情支撑的成长并不因为死而消退，那所有发生在你身上真切的美好确是存在的。那无与伦比是你的一部分，你不同意谁也拿不走。
爱情的力量如果足够强大，它还是会陪伴一生。
对于GA外的我们，有多少人早就将看GA当成了一种习惯，有多少人已经把GA里面的故事当成了现实，有多少人从中获取了力量让自己变得更好。
这本来就是长美剧，剧外的人事变迁也会让剧情有无限可能，剧情总如我们想象的那样这部剧反而是失败的。 GA虽然狗血的几乎将所有的灾难写进了一家医院，但正因如此大的涵盖面，我们才可以在里面找到一部分的自己，产生共鸣，正因如此GA才能让不同种族不同信仰不同地区的人流泪。
从来就没指望点开一部商业化运作下的剧可以让我有这么多感触，但GA做到了。那些充满力量的话语我不曾从周围任何人那里听过，有些时候我隐藏痛苦不是因为我不想说而是我不知道谁可以懂，但GA懂。我怎么可能会舍得放弃这样的一部剧呢？
现在我们怒气冲天，我们骂编剧，我们觉得我们的忠诚被大妈玩弄，我们觉得事情还有挽回的余地。但试想，难道你的人生真的有如你想象的那样发展吗？
如果Merder在一起是童话，那这份苦难便平添了一份真实。
我也不想再去计较derek憋屈的死是如何不科学，就如Amy所说，死了就是死了，不需要细节。
有人说我可以想象把一个人从身边抽去有多么痛苦，但不经历死亡，他们永远无法懂得如何走出这样的阴影。我不想抱怨生活的残忍，因为我无能为力。但我相信所有一切的发生都是有意义。生活会给你糖也会给你毒药，给多给少并不是公平的，重要的不是糖有多甜蜜药有多苦涩，而是你怎么将他们调制成你人生的味道。
derek给不了mere到110岁的陪伴，但在最完美的时候退场给mere了一个永不泯灭的完美过去。
derek的离去不是webber离开ellis的自愿，mere不会坐上旋转木马重复母亲命运的轮回。
天空不留飞鸟的痕迹，但它已经飞过。
derek已经离去，但他的痕迹会留在mere心底。
我相信mere会再次找到让她自己幸福的方式。
我还会在绝望的时候回看GA找到支撑下去的力量。
GA在，我便追。
无与伦比不因死而虚妄，陪伴一生不因死而终结。
我还在等我的mcdreamy。
It's okay.I'll be fine.I'll go ahead.
I'm not gonna waste derek's life to be a quitter.